Alone with myself

As I have mentioned on many other occasions I am taking an Artists Way workshop. This week is deprivation week. It is supposed to help us to be less distracted from our own creativity and potential for creative endeavors. The thing I decided to deprive myself of for the week is listening to the radio while in the car. To some that might not sound like a big feat but for someone who spends at least 1.5hrs in the car commuting on a daily basis that is a long time. last night was the first night and it went by without a hitch, this morning was a little more difficult and tonight on the way home was the hardest. I had what might be described as a very challenging day that just kept getting worse and worse and ended with me having to try to catch a wasp that was flying around my house in a Tupperware container so I could throw its ass outside!I would like to report that I won and the wasp lost! I also go to paint out some of my feelings which was a nice release but some of them are still trapped inside of me. I am afraid of what might come out tomorrow morning in the car on the way to work when its just me and my thoughts. I think me and my thoughts are headed to bed. At least sleeping I cant think . . . Well there is always dreaming!

Such a good release

Today was a good day. I did exactly what I wanted to do and that was stay in my house and just relax. I watched TV for most of the day and thoroughly enjoyed it. It is exactly what I needed. I ended up watching The Notebook. I had read the book but never saw the movie. I have always heard it is a great movie and one that guarantees a cry. I guess I needed a good cry because I decided to watch the movie. It did make me cry and I guess I needed a good cry because afterwards I felt so refreshed. Sometimes you just need a release like a good cry. You would be surprised how much you hold in without even knowing it. I didn't think anything was bothering me but by the way I feel now after the cry it was obvious something was camping out inside me. It is released now and that is such a wonderful feeling! I always say if you feel like crying cry! Let it out! Think of it as a release of energy and you can only feel better afterwards.

Deep breaths

Sometimes I just feel like I need to breathe and step back a little to re-evaluate a situation or situations for that matter. I realize that sometimes things just really do have nothing to do with me. I don't feel like the world revolves around me by any means but I think that I sometimes internalize things that I don't need to. I am going to make this a priority to work on. If I haven't done anything then I am not going to take responsibility for other peoples feelings/behaviors/thoughts etc.

Sometimes I wonder why it takes so long to realize these kinds of things. I guess it really is all just a learning lesson and a continuation of the growing process. I have been on this journey for over a year now. Learning so much about who I am and what I like and while it can be hard at times I am enjoying the process. I will continue on my journey and trust the process!

Drawing a blank

I am sitting here trying to think of what to write and nothing is coming to mind. I figure if I just keep typing and typing something will come to me. Who knows what will come from my mind through these fingers. I wanted to be able to blog nightly but it will be an issue if I am unable to come up with things to write about. Even now I have to idea what to say. Maybe its just a bad night. I do have a headache and its been a long day so maybe that is the problem. I think instead of forcing this tonight I am going to head to bed. Goodnight and sweet dreams!

Gotta get back in the swing of things

Havent been blogging for awhile and I want to get back into the swing of things. Every night at least a few sentences. For tonight, you get three and only three!

Finally home

I want to tell my story of the travel experiences I have had in the last few days but I finally got home and am exhausted. I have been traveling ALL day. I think my body is so exhausted but I am awake at the same time. Its a good thing I took tomorrow off too! Once I have a good nights sleep I will write the story of my adventure :) Until then, Goodnight and Sweet dreams!

Who Moved My Cheese?

I just read this book. I was looking at the shelves and shelves of my mothers books and came across this one. **side note, I think she has a book addiction but when it comes to addictions that's not a bad one to have. Now I know why I LOVE spending time in book stores** Its short and a very easy read and something I would recommend to EVERYONE. At some point in your life, if not right now, you will be going through change whether it is in your career or personal life. This book helps to put dealing with that change in a whole knew perspective. I wish I would have read it sooner. Its a very cute story with a very powerful message!

As I am writing this I realized that I wanted to blog about all the books I have read so I could look back to see what I read in a year. I guess I fell off that wagon. I will have to work on a blog when I get back to capture the many novels I have been a part of. That is one thing I really enjoy about reading. You do become part of the story. You can empathize with some characters and want to yell at others. It is a journey through your imagination and sometimes that is the best place to be! Happy Reading!

I'm going back to Cali, Cali, Cali

Leaving for my trip soon. Getting excited. The flight is going to be so long but I am sure I will sleep some. I wanted to post something now because I probably won't when I get there because I will be exhausted with the time change. Hopefully I will be able to continue to blog each night. I will be trying my best. Can't let my 6 or 7 followers down :) LOL (I love EACH and EVERY one of you who read my stuff and who find me remotely entertaining)

Ok folks its time to leave. Will update with all the entertaining conversations I will be having this trip! Updating more like VENTING! LOL! Wish me luck!!

Day before my trip

. . . well night actually. I just got home not too long ago. Tonight was my Artists Way workshop. I have a whole new love and respect for Wednesday nights. I get to see some of my favorite people and have amazing soul enriching conversations. There is just a sense of peace and calm with these workshops. Tonight I was asked to describe myself as an object. The first thing that came to my mind was a spinning top. There is a lot going on. Not necessarily bad stuff, but a lot of stuff. I feel like I am going a million miles a minute and I am upright on my axis right now but at some point that momentum will stop and I will crash on my side. I just need to prepare myself for that so I can cushion the blow. A few days after I get back someone is coming to visit me who makes my heart smile. Then everything will be ok! Everything will be ok! Everything will be ok! Everything will be ok!