I want to start writing again

For the past week or so I have been really thinking a lot about writing. Writing poetry, writing on this blog, writing a book . . . It can happen! I just think that all my work with the Creative Soulcare workshops (formally called The Artist's Way) is opening me up to forms of creativity that once were alive inside my body. I used to write poetry ALL the time. Now we are talking years ago! Throughout the years I have written some things here and there but at some point along the way I stopped giving it a lot of energy. Well folks, the energy seems to be flowing through my veins and wants to make an appearance again. Now with all that said, I think part of me is scared to write again. All the same fears that once came with my art (painting, drawing etc.) are now rearing their ugly heads again. I want to work through these fears and not let it incapacitate me. I don't want it to be another 10 years before I write again. Sometimes you just have to look fear in the face and say "Get the $&%* out of my way!" And that is what I am going to do. I was looking at pictures to add to this post and when I saw the magnetic poetry one I knew that its new home would be on my blog. My fridge is full of magnetic poetry. I have little mini one and two liners all over. What I especially love about the picture is that right in the middle clear as day is the word "gift". And when I look at that word, I think what a gift it is for me to be able to express my creativity in so many different ways. What a gift it is that my passion for writing is coming back to me. Such a gift I have received. And now I share a gift with you. Here is a poem I wrote in 1995. Yes I know that was many many moons ago, but I want to pay my respects to where it all started. This is one of my favorites. I figured that my work from the past can inspire my future. I hope this inspires you . . .

I See Him

Looking across the room
I see him
Thinking about what we had
I see him
Feeling the sadness and pain
I see him
Here come the tears
I see him
Wishing it was like it was before
I see him
Wanting to tell him I love you
I see him
Crying because he wont look
I see him
Hoping he'll understand
I see him
Wanting it to be over
I see him
Wishing he felt the same
I see him
Wanting him back
I see him
I'm looking the other way
Because it hurts to see him


I would like to add here that a lot of the things I wrote in my teenage years was sad and depressing and about heartache and pain. I wrote a blog awhile ago wondering why I don't write when things are going well, when I am happy. Poetry is a form of expression and I think I used it to help get me through the hard times. To help comfort and support me. I feel like a lot of people use it in that way. I want to start writing to express all my emotions even the good ones. We'll see what comes out and what is created. I do know that I am looking forward to seeing my words written (and typed) again!