Why I Cry . . . A poem

Why I cry

I cry because I hold everything inside
I cry because I don't speak my mind
I cry because I am afraid
I cry because it is my release
I cry to try to keep the peace inside of me . . .
But that isn't working
I cry because of things from my past
I cry because sometimes life moves too fast . . .
And sometimes too slow
I cry because I don't want to make mistakes
I cry to sometimes give myself a break . . .
because I am too hard on myself
I cry because you make me so happy . . .
And I am not used to that
I cry because things from my past haunt me . . .
People were so mean
I cry because my heart has been broken
I cry because my innocence has been stolen
I cry when I am happy, scared, or sad
I cry when I am excited, lonely, or mad
I cry because I want to say those 3 words to you . . .
But it scares me
I don't want to be afraid anymore
So through these tears
I will say what I think you already knew
I, Amanda Robinson, am so
In LOVE with you!


This is a poem I wrote for someone specific in May 2011 but the ideas about why I cry still hold true to this day. I think this was the first time I was able to put into words some of the reasons for why I cry. I found it while I was writing my morning pages and knew it was no coincidence I found it today. I was just talking to my new Creative Soulcare group on Monday night that I wanted to start writing again. I feel inspired to write more. We'll see what happens . . .